Life Update

 So it's been a hot minute since I have written anything for this blog. Hello everyone. I doubt anyone is reading this, but if you are, thanks for sticking around. Life has been a rollercoaster lately. I was hoping 2025 would give me a break after everything that happened in 2024, but clearly I was mistaken. 

I don't know WTF is going on lately. If it's not one thing, it's another. Life will not slow down one bit to give me a break. And I am trying my best to handle everything with as much grace as I can, but to be completely real with you, I am exhausted. Mentally and physically, I am exhausted. 

As some of you may know, my cat had a complication after his dental procedure, which resulted in an extended stay at the emergency vet and a little over $7k in vet bills. I am incredibly grateful that he is alive and well, but I will admit that I feel so anxious and stressed over him constantly now. I am constantly worried that something is wrong with him and paranoid that he is going to die on me or have another episode where I need to rush him to the vet again. On top of all of that, the pet insurance I have for him has denied the entire claim, trying to relate it to his previous suspected asthma. While I plan to fight their decision, I am still utterly exhausted. Why do I need to fight a stupid insurance company to cover a portion of his lifesaving veterinary services? I work in the veterinary field, and I truly think pet insurance is a scam, unless you get the insurance immediately after you get your pet. They will find any miniscule excuse not to cover your vet bills. 

So while I am dealing with that, my mental health also just feels as though it has been declining. I've been trying to do things to fix it, like diving back into hobbies that I have abandoned. I've been trying to read as much as I can, as well as watching comfort shows that I like. I've been also trying to get outside into nature now that there is nicer weather lately. These things do somewhat help, but not entirely. I do hope this year will give me a break after all of this, though. I am so desperate for peace. I feel like I have been in a constant state of anxiety and stress and my mind and body just feel so tired. I need a break. 

I hate that I have been such a downer in this post, but life is just insane lately and adulthood has truly just been testing me. I know that I am strong enough to handle these things because I have a great support system around me and I have God on my side. I know that I will push through and eventually come out on the other side, but sometimes I just wonder how long it's going to take...

Anyways, sorry for the sorta negative life update, but unfortunately, life isn't always kind to us and I would rather be real about what's going on and the way that I am feeling than put on a facade. Hopefully in the next post, I'll have some more positive things to say.

With love,

 Ash